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An Open Dialogue with God about Idolatry
An Open Dialogue with God about Idolatry
I’ve been talking with God lately about idolatry. Admittedly, He listens, I talk, that is until this morning.
Since you weren’t part of the conversation, I’ll catch you up.
A Little Background
God pursued me my entire life through ignorance, denial and outright rebellion. Looking back I can’t deny the times He protected me from man and self. Even though I was blind to it then, He comforted and cared for me with an inconceivable Love. God kept this up, ever patient, while I knocked on my last door, drank my last drink, destroyed the last bit of my soul. He tried to spare me from what was next and what would follow. I’m certain He grieved as I turned my back, choosing to thrash around in the muck and mire until I saw myself with utter hatred. When that was still not enough, I believe Jesus wept as I did my best to obliterate the woman He wonderfully and fearfully created. And, I know He and the angels rejoiced when my heart, mind and soul succumbed to His goodness.
20 Year Ongoing Conversation
Daily I go to God. If I’m honest, my prayers ration out as 5% praise, 5% gratitude, 10% requests, 80% obsessing over children and grandchildren. I desperately want them to have what I have. Not just in heaven, but here…
